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Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I've done something that ii should be proud of myself just now. Wondering what it is? ii think my jiemeis will be very happy for mii. How should ii put it? Okie, I've tore up the letter that was meant for him. I've kept this letter for weeks wondering to give him. I've also seeked help from many of them whether to give him the letter. They gave mii lots of suggestions but eventually the decision lies within mii. This letter have given mii lots of problem. But in the end, ii decided not to give him, but to the rubbish bin. Actually, ii also tore up my heart as well. ii felt so much relieved after that. In fact, ii should have done this earlier. When ii was tearing up this letter, my music player was playing the song " Bleeding heart " at the same time. Was it a kind of coincidence? Or the heaven is playing a trick on mii? Or maybe ii shouldn't have written this letter in the first place. No wonder people say " troubles are often self-sought. "

Yup, live have to go on, no use clinging to the past. Anyway, what's past is past. We should look forward... ii must really thank the people that have shown concern for mii especially mummy, brenda and shiyun. They are always the one beside mii when im feeling blue. There's still a lot of them that ii should've thank. Erm, you all should know who you are. ii really appreciate it, really. Thanks a lot guys. And don't worry, I've put every single thing behind mii. Not thinking about the past. I'm a brand new winnie now. XD. Congrats mii??haha...

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/29/2008 10:19:00 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

Most of us was surprised by daddy just now. First of all, daddy loves eating king of the fruits, durian but his daughter, that is mii, don't really like but will still eat. Just now, daddy brought one basket of durian home. Those big big baskets containing 38 durians inside. Isn't that amazing?haas. Daddy often surprises us by his actions. Now, ii can eat until ii vomit, *faint*.

It's a lot right??? * Faint *

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/25/2008 04:32:00 PM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DADDY!! MUACKS!!

Yesterday afternoon shiyun, qiqi ( shiyun's sis ), mii and my daddy went to mustafa to window shop. We walked all the way there from bugis to little india. It's a long long trip. ii really have to take my hats off qiqi because she didn't even groan for walking so long. Whereas mii, walk halfway, my legs already felt tired. So disgrace of mii, haas. Until 4 or 5 something, the three girls was hungry due to the long walk and we decided to fill our stomach first. It was raining and we walked to the NEAREST sheng siong supermarket to eat. For your information, it's not very near. * Faint * ii hope daddy will enjoy the trip together with us because it was his birthday yesterday.

ii have a great talk with " R uncle " yesterday night, haas. What makes mii excited most was, the whole room was mine because jiejie went chalet and stay overnight there. But only for yesterday, sobsob. ii have a nice sleep and my mum couldn't wake mii up in the morning.

Just now, the whole of my family included my bro-in-law-to-be went to " dian xiao er " located at vivo city to celebrate daddy's birthday. But before that ii was feeling giddy because of that stupid car park. It was in swirl type and our car need to follow it until the forth floor. By the time we reached, ii was already half dead. But fortunately, it didn't affect my appetite. All of us had our fill there. After the sumptuous meal, we went shopping. ii bought a Adidas shirt at 55 bucks. ii still felt nibbling pain inside my heart now. My next target is newurbanmale's tank top, haha. We rushed back home to watch the incredible tales. My favourite tv show, hehe. Unfortunately, ii missed the first 10 minutes but lucky ii still have mobtv, haha. ii can watch it whenever ii like.

After the show, jiejie told us something she met in the chalet. She said that when she was asleep, she sensed that something was pressing her down on the bed. She cannot even move and utter a sound for a couple of minutes. It happens on 3 something midnight where other's were soundly asleep. When they first checked-in in the afternoon, they discovered that the place was very dirty. Not those footprints from dirty shoes or what. It's like nobody used that particular unit for years. The dirt was very thick. I'm sure that the unit was vacant for years. Maybe " something " happened few years ago and they left it vacant. My sis friend was " suay " enough to rent the " dirty " place. Before that ii even asked my sis to bring mii there, ii was fortunate enough because ii wanted to accompany daddy and didn't tag along. If it was mii in her situation, ii will faint, really faint. Talking about this makes my hair stand...* cold * ii was even more determined that the particular unit was spooky because my brother was " excited " when we talked about the incident my sis was having. Hopefully, everything will be alright tomorrow. ii will stop here, goodnight everyone...

Before & After....

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/20/2008 11:05:00 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

ii accompanied brenda to a temple afternoon and what makes my blood boils is that the man working there told mii that he miss my mum. For your information, my mum and mii went to this temple very often. She knew quite a number of them there. But what makes mii angry is that, he told mii he miss my mum. At that very moment, ii told him that, uncle, my father wil come and beat you. And he quickly change the subject. Asking mii where I'm studying now and those that don't concern about him. How can he say this kind of thing to mii? And, ii still have a friend around. * ROLL EYES * ii really hate this kind of people and some more he is working in a temple. From what ii knew so far, temple is a place where we worship our deities and it's a sacred place. How dare he say this kind of thing in front of ALL the deities. It was preposterous! Since he worked in the temple, he knew very clearly what he should do and what he shouldn't do, what he can say and what he cannot say. ii will bring my father there one day and tell him, say it in front of my father if you have guts. But i'm sure that he will not come to a good end. No worries because ii will go to the temple with my mum next time whenever she wanted to. ii will not let her going alone. Spare mii from what ii said here because i'm just stating the truth.

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/18/2008 06:20:00 PM

Monday, July 14, 2008

Why is love so complex yet so many are yearning for it? Why love can't be as simple as ABCs? Why it cannot be just ii love you and you love mii? That simple! Why do we have to make it so complicated? Or actually love can be as simple, it's only the way we think, the way we deemed it to be. Perhaps human's are a complicated one's. In my opinion, love is sweet eventhough u drank a coffee without adding sugar. It will only happen in the honeymoon period. But once it's over, it just taste bland. It will be in a different case if both of you are meant for each other. Don't ever break your heart over someone so easily, you'll end up hurting yourself even more. What meant to be yours, will be yours. Similarly, what ought to be ended should be ended.

To my surprise, this is the forth time ii dreamt about him. Oh my god! ii didn't want to. ii didn't know why. Actually, i've stop thinking about him and live my own life. My mum's friend asked mii whether is he my boyfriend. My answer to it was no la, he is only a normal friend. ii can even act out that he is not. And im not sad over it anymore. ii didn't know why ii still dream about him. now, ii only hope to let this matter rest, after all, it's in the past. And ii hope it won't affect mii, the most important one.

Brenda is having some problem with her boyfriend again. Should it be a stepping stone for them or not, it's up to them whether to solve the problem together. Although, onlooker's see better but we can only see the outer side of it and not the inner side. You knew it better than us. The conclusion of us is not as important, the most major one is what's in your mind. What are you thinking, not us. We can have a lot of opinion, but the only fact is within you. It's your choice whether to carry on with the relatonship or end it. We can carry out a lot of suggestions, but it's only whether you'll listen. We've said what we can, it's up to you to listen. As your bestfriend, what we can do is share your problems with you, listen to you and give suggestions but not command you to do anything. ii also don't want you to be in my so called " xia chang ".

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/14/2008 08:08:00 PM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

爱是无所不在的，
很多人也许现在是孤单的，
也许你很努力找寻自己的真爱，
或许你可以停下脚步，
看看你四周的人，
其实你身旁的人也是有属于他可爱的一面。

其实这个世界是很美好的，
也许现在你是孤单一个人，
也许你急着要谈恋爱，
可是你急着=找到的人，
可能不是你真正想要的人。

所以不要勉强自己去喜欢上一个人，
这样会使你自己过得不开心。

两个人在一起最重要的就是开心，
如果连最基本的开心的做不到了，
我想那也是该说离开的时候了。

但是如果感情要走到分手的這一步，
一定会有人受到伤害的。

试着把话说清楚，
让彼此的伤害降到最低，
失去的人也不要太难过，
地球不会因为你而不转，
大家也不会因为你而不吃饭。

所以振作起来吧！！
为下一段恋情做准备吧！！

感情是证明的，
不是嘴巴说的。

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/12/2008 12:52:00 AM

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I've been a stupid fool all along. You lied to me in the beginning and NOW then ii knew all about it. I've been kept in the dark from the day ii knew you. ii always thought that you are different from the others but you proved mii wrong. You made mii smile and yet pushed mii into the hell. This is how you treat mii. If not " R " uncle told mii, ii wouldn't have know the shortcomings about you. I'm totally dismayed! Not because you left mii but because you've been lying to mii all along. GUYS CANNOT BE TRUSTED!!!! 原来我一直是被蒙在鼓里的那个笨蛋...

No wonder shiyun said ii " but jiu ta stamp. " It's true, I'm indeed " but jiu ta stamp. " And ii think, only my future husband will take the " stamp " away from my eyes. I've seen the wrong person in the wrong time and at the wrong place. I have myself to blame getting to know this kind of guy. A Casanova's. Normally, a Casanovas will not call themself a Casanova's. They will act as a very devoted kind and emphasize the words on " I"M NOT A CASANOVA'S ". Can't you just be yourself? You're just a wolf in sheep's clothing. You acted out everything and ii think it also include the feelings towards mii. You exploited the trust ii had in you. All men are the same. They're sweet and gentle when wooing you, but once they've succeeded, they became entirely different. Time reveals a man's heart. You'll have your come-uppance...

Things ii held so dear to seems so insignificant now. ii feel so stymied. The only thing that's constant is change. Is this the extent of my abilities?

人始终是感性的。有那么多回忆，虽然有好有不好，但也不能像电脑那样想删除就删除...

如果有一天，你走进我的心里，你一定会哭，因为里面装满你的点滴...如果有一天，我走进你的心里，我也一定会哭，因为里面找不到我的身影...

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/10/2008 11:22:00 AM

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

没想到过了那么久我还是会梦到他...

这已经是第三次了...

我还放不下吗？我不知道...

我唯一知道的是，执着于一段没有感情的关系，倒不如试着放开你自己和对方...

也许你会觉得很难，可是长痛不如短痛，早一点做出一个了断...

起初会很难过也很辛苦，可是过了一段时间，你就会觉得为什么那时你会这么执着...

与其捉住一个心已经不在你这里的人，让彼此不开心，倒不如放开彼此，去找一段属于你自己的幸福。

一个已经没有任何感情的关系，在捉住也没有，你只会让自己更痛苦...

感觉一旦失去了，就是失去了...

就算你多努力地想要挽回也是于事无补...

就算挽回了，那段感情也不会再回到从前...

一个已经有了裂痕的感情，就像一道疤痕，永远都会留在你的心上...

想要抹掉也没有用...

感情是两个人的事，而不是一个人的事...

光靠你自己是没有用的，除非对方也有心想要挽回...

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/08/2008 12:56:00 PM

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

EMO-IN~~~~

Although you pm mii in msn yesterday but ii don't really enjoyed it. ii felt frustrated and bewildered.
Before that ii didn't know that you will online and ii even thought that u have already blocked and deleted mii. Never did ii thought that you will online and even pm mii. The first reaction ii had was shocked. ii didn't know why my heart was racing and why my hands are so cold. ii don't know whether to be happy or not. You threw mii a question instead of saying those hi or hello to mii. ii think u really don't treat mii as a friend at all now. ii did chat with your friends before because ii wanted to clarify some things from them. Am ii wrong in doing that? You told mii they laughed at mii. And my reply was never mind. You said you don't know what i'm thinking. Same to me, ii also don't know what is in your mind. What you expect mii to say? Say ii care what they say about mii or what? They are your friend. ii didn't want to tense up your relationship with them. ii didn't want to put you in a spot. Do you care? You told mii, they say and you listen. Do you really care? If you are, you will stop them from what they are saying. Do you even bother to speak up for mii? NO. OR am ii an embarrassment to you? Are you ashamed that ii was once you girlfriend? MY GOSH!!!!!!!! Who would like people to say bad things behind their back? Please, try putting yourself in my shoes. What will you do if you were mii? What will you do or even say when you are in my position? ii can't stop what they want to say. ii can't possibly glue up their mouth right? So what exactly you want mii to do or say? Please tell mii what you want mii to say. Please come straight to the point. Now then ii realise you really don't understand mii at all. If you know mii, you weren't be telling mii all these to upset mii even more. Yeah, you claimed that you don't know what I'm thinking. Indeed and that's for sure because you don't understand mii at all and you didn't even want to understand mii. Am ii right? What ii can do is stop all the chats between mii and your friends from now onwards. Are you satisfy now? And now, ii totally lost my judgement and thoughts towards people as well as the confidence in myself. ii can't differentiate who is speaking the truth and who is not. ii don't even dare to face myself. ii feel as if I'd been stabbed in the chest over and over again. Please, I'm pleading you, don't take mii as a idiot, can you?

ii always thought that giving in can make the relationship last longer but I'm wrong. You know why ii didn't quarrel or threw temper at you? It's not that ii don't have any temper. That's because ii didn't want our relationship to turn sour. Then, ii realise that for a relationship to work, the couple must learn to give and take. There's no way you can have a relationship to last long when a party just give in and the other take. Anyway, it's already too late to say all these things.

What's wrong with mii??

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/01/2008 10:34:00 PM

# if i say i love euu, would euu take me as a fool? – @ 7/01/2008 10:49:00 AM